Sorry

Ok so it's been awhile since I've posted... Sorry bout that... it's been pretty hectic the last couple days.... Let me give you a quick, this is what happened.... Me and Seth have had 2 private lessons with Tara trying to get ready for auditions... and they've worked out really good... I'm hoping he'll change his mind... even if I pay for all of the privates I don't even care right now... Saturday I laid out for awhile and while I was layin out I had a friend stop by, One of those long time no see friends... So Saturday night I ended up hanging out with him... It was pretty cool I got to go see Kung Fu Panda..IT WAS AWESOME!! And attractive... lol Sunday I went to Sacrament then drove down to Provo for Seth's homecoming.... It was really good. Then spent the rest of the day with my family. So those are the main highlights from the past few days... I've basically just been totally wiped out and tired... Another reason why I haven't posted... Anywho I'm gonna go so I can finish eating and get ready for school... Love you all... Peace! ttyl~Kim

Mm'Kay then

So I guess I didn't really realize how too freaking true my horoscope really is today... I just got some bad news... I can totally understand and I'm not mad at him... I'm more mad at myself for being so freaking excited about finally having a chance to maybe prove myself to someone, and I think that chance is just totally shot. So I really don't know what's next anymore and I wish I could honestly say I don't really care but the bad thing is that I really do care. It sucks like hell! But I should be used to stuff like this... I'll just try to keep my head up and wait for my chance in life right? Wrong pretty much I'm sick of waiting and I don't really feel like holding my head up any more so I'm pretty sure I'm going to let it drop again and just try to move on with life again.... So pretty much I don't exactly want to be where I am right now, and I'm really hoping that I get a text from someone soon to save me from letting myself sulk over something I shouldn't give a dang about.... Why do we let things mean so much to us in life? Why are we able to find something that we love, that we feel we can accomplish some kind of something in and sometimes maybe even seem like we are good at it... and let that Have such an effect on our lives that it just keeps stinging like crap every time you get shot down? Sometimes I really wish that I was dumb enough to myself that I'd take the easy road out of things... Then I think back on my past and I remember how when it wasn't my choice to take that path, how bad my life really sucked. Then I know that I can't take the easy way out, I can't just give up... I'm daddy's feisty little redhead I don't give up and I don't give in right? well most of the time that's how it's been. Sometimes I so wish that I grew up being mommy's little mouse so that when I chose to be that role now it wouldn't seem like I'm just running from something or be a chicken and pull away. Right now I just wish that I could just go curl up in my little 'cubby' at grandma's house and just be by myself and play with my little lite in the socket.... Yeah if only... I can't even fit my legs all the way in my 'cubby' anymore let alone my whole body... So this is where daddy's little redhead comes out and say well see then there is no sense feeling bad anymore when there is nothing you can do about it any further. So here is where I'm going to leave this dumb entry and forget about it.... So Peace. TTYL ~Kim

Smiles!!

So this is going to be fairly short cuz I'm sick of typing today and I've gotta type up a paper in a little while.... I just have to say that I got to see someone last night and it was AMAZING!!! It was just a lot of fun to hang out and chill and not feel pressured to be something or someone I'm not. We went shopping, Hung out, Set stuff up, Organized, and just laughed. It was great... I can't wait to hang out with him again.

So this morning Laura got back to team and it was fun having her back. Me and Seth got to dance like 3/4 of the time with them because they were working on the cha-cha that we helped Laura clean. It was way fun and I'm looking forward to getting our own routines for competition. :) Other than that not to much else has happened today. I'm just out of it... I'm at work so I can't work on my homework because the phone calls just make me loose my train of thought... which isn't usually nice when I'm writing about something lol... So that makes it a lost cause, not to mention IR's dumb surveyors are here and being retarded... So that doesn't help me work on my homework either. So any who... My Horoscope for the day sorta hit me right on the head because it told me like almost exactly what I was thinking at the moment I looked at it... Well not what I was thinking but an answer to what I was thinking about..... lol

Aquarius: You have no idea how to resolve an issue, so just be honest and say you're not sure what to do next. .

Anyways I'm gonna head I love you all!!!!! Peace out!!!

ttyl~Kim

YAY!!!!

Ok so... all the turmoil has been solved lol... You see... I have a new Latin partner now. And I felt bad about having to talk to my other partner who is like one of my close friends so that I can dance with the other guy now... so hehe.. Anywho I have a new Latin partner and so far things are going great!! I'll have to post some pictures of us when we get going more... :)

Anyways... So last night... I made this great decision of wanting a change... So I cut my hair!!! It's even a little shorter than what I was thinking of doing with it. :) lol So Here's a picture... tell me what you think.

So in the picture if you haven't noticed... I'm Sun burnt... This would be from the Modeling Photo Shoot that I just got done with... It was fun for the most part... but I mean it was a good experience and maybe one day I'll get to be on a new poster for the school... Who knows though.. They might not use any of the shots that I'm even in.... lol that would have made today a waste of time.... oh well I'm over it... Ok so I'm going to go because I'm working by myself at the moment, and the phones are off the hook.... So I'll post later... Peace out

ttyl ~Kim

Last night.. and this mornings Turmoil......

So I got sustained and Set apart in my new calling yesterday. As the new Ward Librarian... working with the main Librarian who is none other than my mom!! YAY!!! It was pretty sweet. :) Then I sorta chilled... I watched sliding doors, read a little bit, Shelly ended up surprising us and showing up... :) That was neat to be able to see her!! We might finally get to do our girls night this Friday... I'm excited I want to really bad so we'll have to see hopefully I won't have any other plans so that I can chill with her... :) Oh and the lady that was going to come and pic up our goat BG ended up having problems with her trailer hitch so she is going to have to come tonight now.... So today I'm excited because I get to get my hair cut... I'm not sure what I'm going to do but I think I want to do something new and different... I guess I'll have to look at some pictures and decided what I want... So t his morning I'm in all sorts of turmoil... I'm not sure what to do about a couple situations... I'm tossing over everything in my mind over and over and over again... and have been for the past couple hours... probably still will be having problems with it for the next little while... Which sucks because dwelling on something that you know you have to make a choice on sucks.... because you can see positives to everything and from every angle... however you can also see the negatives too... Which just makes it hard to make up your mind... I think I know what I'm going to do and what I have to do... the only problem is getting the guts and the nerve to do it... a rule I learned once is find something you want, even something that you could say you want more than anything and you just go for it... try not to think about the future to much or dwell on it an incredible amount but just go for it... And I think I just found my answer of what to do... I know what I want, I know what I'd really like to have happen... And the only way for it to happen is if I do, I have to change what is happening right now to get what I want... Which makes me feel shallow but I know it insists of changing myself and things that I'm doing... So... Tomorrow starting early on... I know what I'm going to do... I think I've thought about it enough... I'm ready to have a change in things... I also know that it's going to be hard.... But what did Jesus always say? "I never said it would be easy, I only said that it'd be worth it." Man I sure hope that this decision pays off and it really is worth it....... Anywho I better get to workin on homework... Loves!! Peace out! ttyl~Kim

Random Little Bits of Info......

So first thing.... yesterday I started getting a couple texts from a guy that I sorta liked a while back... Trying to set me up with his "very good buddy" So... um I said I'll check it out but I'm dating another guy that I'm giving a chance too. So I went onto this guys space ok? well.... can I just say um..... NOT MY TYPE!!! First of all I've totally fallen for this other guy... He's totally amazing to me, and he's treated me great and he hasn't even been here... So this other guy that's supposedly thinking I'm Magnificent and beautiful (so my friend tells me) is not attractive to me at all! I feel really shallow by saying this but um yeah... I had a GREAT friend Emily over last night and I showed her and my mom pictures of this dude... yeah they both told me NO No way are you even going out with him.... I feel so bad but he's just one of those guys that seem like half of my stalkers that I've had in the past... Bad memories.... Anyways so I just told him that I'm dating someone right now and that I'd think about texting this 'Very good buddy" of his.... This morning... I got some really shocking news... about this guy that has been a family friend my whole life... So I had seen him off and on for awhile then like nothing, I found out that he had moved back east with one of his older brothers for awhile... Well when I run into him next I was older.. (duh) And he had asked how old I was and if I had been dating anyone at the moment... and I told him no... So he asked my parents if it'd be cool if he asked me out on a date or two.. they said sure... we prefer her date older guys anyways because they tend to treat her a little bit better... So he started asking me out and it was always last minute or I already had plans... then I didn't hear from him for awhile and started to then date Erik.. of course that got a little serious... so when Brandon the long time friend started asking me out again I told him that I really couldn't anymore right then, so he told me well if it ends up not working out with him give me a call... Which a few months after it broke off I decided to shoot him a text.. I guess he had given up on me callin so he didn't know who it was when I had texted him... So I said to hell with it... Can I just say that the Lord works in mysterious ways and that I try to count my blessings when I learn that I could have ended up in a way worse situation?? Anyways my dad called me this morning, and had me look something up online.... It had showed me that this guy that I almost dated had been arrested and booked into the county jail like 6 times. And a few of them were because of ual abuse against a child... Well you all know that I haven't always looked my age and I look younger than I am... Yeah this freaked me out just a little bit... Thinkin of times that I had hung out with this kid and we were alone... that could have been me.. what's worse is that he is a family friend... WAIT let me rephrase that.... He WAS a family friend... I'm sorry but no friend of mine would ever do that to a child... Not to mention his other charges of criminal mischief, burglary, driving on a suspended license, driving with no registration.... not showing up for court dates... etc. etc. etc. This is something that I thanked the Lord that I didn't get caught up with him worse than I already was..... I'd probably be in a WAY worse situation than I am right now... I'm so thankful that I know that the Lord is always there and always looking out for our well being... I'm going to sign off for now because I've got other stuff to take care of but Loves to everyones!!! Peace ttyl ~Kim

HEHEHEHE IT'S FRIDAY!!!

THE WEEKEND IS HERE!!!! IT'S FRIDAY!!!!!! I'M SO FREAKIN EXCITED!!!!!! So first yesterday after I got off work I had a migraine that was just getting worse and worse. So I went to my appointment with my Chiropractor and Then went home, ate something took some meds and went to bed at 6:30!! WOW that is so freaking early for me.. The funny thing is, is that I slept pretty dang good throughout the night as well... It was so nice to be awake and feel refreshed this morning. So then I taught team this morning the whole time basically because... Seth L. a previous dancer from Scott's team just got back from a mission and wanted to learn the routines so that he could work back up to Scott's team. And he asked me to work on teaching him the Gold and Gold Bar routines so that I can possibly help him to re audition for the team.... :) Can I just say that that totally makes me happy? The funniest thing about all of it is that I knew exactly who he was when I first seen him and when Kristen first introduced him. Because I'd not only seen him dance before his mission... but I admit I actually had a crush on him for a little while before he left as well... lol I know retarded huh? Oh well... So I'll help him and hopefully by helping him audition it will help me to get onto Scott's team too.... :) We only hope right? It's about time I get on.... So after helping him I went to the Comp lab and was sending an email to someone when I got a random text... it was like "Hey it's been a long time... lets hang out" So it was a 435 number so I'm thinking its one of my friends from North Sanpete... (Not thinking that I'd get a text that early in the day from someone that is returning home from another country) So of course I was like... "Sorry to say this but um, who is this?" And I got a total scare.... this was the response.... "What? You kissed me then forgot me... was I that bad?" Ok so I start freaking out thinking um... who did I kiss??? OMG.... Cuz I know like everyone I've ever kissed and I don't remember kissing any of them... so I was like lets see if I can figure out who it is with this... "No, I got a new phone, lost half my numbers..." So I got one more text back before I figured out who it was.... "Good excuse... but you would have remembered if I had kissed you...lol" Right there that told me that it was Jeremiah and he just got back from Korea... So I called him and got to talk to him for awhile before I had to go to my next class, it was so coolioo!!!! It was Freakin Awesome man... I mean not like i haven't talked to him on the phone before... but um... probably just cuz I knew he was closer to me than he was while he was in Korea and knew that he'd be coming even closer in Utah today... :) Ok well... I'm tired of typing for a minute here... so I think I'm going to go read for a bit because my mom gave me a new book to read and I'm looking forward to reading it... :) So hope all is going well in your lives and you're all in my Prayers!! Lots of Love!!! Peace out ttyl ~Kim

Horoscope

Ok so I think that my horoscope today just totally hit the spot for me so I decided to copy it and put it on her... Hopefully that will help me to remember it... Aquarius: You're always trying to make others happy, so it feels weird to put yourself first. But a good weird. .

My weekend adventures....

So I had started off Saturday a good way like any girl should and went and bought me and my mom new shoes and my mom a couple shirts. (I got like 6 new pairs of shoes lol... but they were only like $5 or so each so it's all good right?) Then later on me and Nettie chilled for awhile then we had Laura's teams performance. That I was in charge of. The team is used to dancing on this big floor... well we showed up and they had them up on this tiny stage that's like a 1/4 of their regular floor... and it had like tables behind the curtains making it even smaller. Then their sound system was like a little disc-man that was plugged into a machine... On the stage... So I had to be on the stage with the sound system with the team lol... it was really retarded.... and they were supposed to do a couple things in between numbers well they didn't so I got to make a fool of myself by trying to talk to the audience and explain things to them in between while the team was trying to change costumes. So all in all... it ended up being a pretty good looking... mess lol.. :) After that me and Nettie went and chilled with Veronica for awhile. That was a TOTAL Blast... I learned a new song... 'I kissed a girl' it's Hilarious!!!! Then Nephi came and got me and Nettie and we went Clubbin a COMPLETELY FUN TIME WITH THEM!!! Me and Nettie got to get our faces painted while we went out on the outside part of the club because we were dying inside... she got a big Red and pink butterfly across her whole face its way cute!!! Then I got a Tribal Rose on my right cheek. then we went back in and just kept dancing until the club closed. It was fun and Nephi was like our body guard to keep crazy, creepy boys away from us. There was actually a couple times when I would pull Nettie away from guys and tell them that we were there together and not to mess with her. One of the times we ended up smearing part of her face paint onto my forehead so I had this random black blob on my forehead it was great lol... I'll add a couple pics of us from the night. Anyways it ended up being a blast and I totally love hangin with my homies!!! I didn't even get home until like 3 in the morning and I have church at 9 O'clock..... hehehe but I was a good girl and still got up and went. That pretty much sums up my Saturday fun lol... Here are a couple pics we took while at the club! Oh yeah and it was Nettie's first time going clubbin so it was even funnier to be able to just go crazy with her. :) I'll always remember this experience lol...

Ok so.. Sunday.... I got my calling from my Bishop today, I will be sustained and set apart next Sunday. I'll admit that I was actually a little worried that he would call me into the primary or some kind of teaching position. I probably would have had to be honest about how I felt about being called to that. Because I feel in no way ready for a calling like that. Not to mention that I feel like most of them know more about what I'd try to be teaching them than I did. It's not the best feeling when you are trying to teach someone twice as young as you or even younger something and they correct you on it.... Ever had a 5 year old correct you? Yeah you sorta feel pretty stupid after that. Anywho... so my calling.... ended up being.... hehehe.... A librarian. With none other than my MOM!!!! Can I just tell you how freakin stoked I am for it? lol technically I already have been one every now and then because whenever I'm there I'm usually in the library with her anyways. So there you have it... I'm now going to be officially a Librarian. I'm very happy about this calling and I will admit that I was hoping and praying that I'd get this one instead of another one. Me and my mom will also be able to better motivate each other to make sure to always go even if we just don't want to get out of bed. So I went to church and got my calling after the block but during Sacrament there was another little baby that wouldn't stop looking at me and smiling and "playing" (making faces and stuff) with me. It was really cute. For some odd reason little kids tend to do that with me. It's really fun though because I absolutely adore them. My mom claims there must be some type of Aura around me that draws them to me... and I think that she might just be right about that. Then me and my parents went out to lunch together and went and picked some stuff up... like a bouncy rocking horse thing and a big wheel and stuff from my grandma's for the new baby that's on the way... (Tim's and Liz's) Then I totally came home and took a nap... I was so tired.... lol that's what usually happens when you stay out till 3 then end up not being able to get to sleep for awhile though huh? lol Then I just spent some time with my fam. Now I've gotta get back to workin on my English paper... lol Then head off to bed... Love to ya all!!! Hope you're all doing great :) If there's anything you need let me know! ttyl ~Kim