This freaking SUCKS!!!!!

Ok so this totally freakin bites!!!! Here is my little shpill about 2 different things that are really bugging me right now sorry it's sorta just a let it out blog... 1. So me ad this guy were friends he went to a different school, so I work for the admissions and registration department at UVU right? Well this guy comes to me, had me help him with registration, telling him days and times of auditions for team, talking to the coach of the team, etc etc etc... Ok so pretty much I did him all these little favors... Well then we do actually end up on the same team which is great ad all. I'm not bad mouthing my team member or anything... but this is how I feel he repays me... He has this attitude that he is better than everyone else and he listens to NO one!! He missed the first couple days of choreography and formations for Latin Medley.... So he comes in last Friday and we are all telling him that he needs to be directly behind his partner in this one spot... it's where we take the formation from being spaced like across the floor to in this little teeny tiny clump....where you don't even have room to bring your arm up half way..... well I'm a not even a full line behind him I'm almost in line with him... and me and my partner are on the outside of the clump, so if he's not in his place, we cant be in ours then we get in trouble for throwing the whole formation off... So everyone is continually telling him you need to scoot in RIGHT behind your partner and we start on the RIGHT foot not the left.... Well he doesn't listen to anyone.. he ended up basically being right where I was supposed to be in the formation.... which was where I was actually located because we thought tat if we scooted into our correct place he'd take the hint and scoot in.... Oh boy were we wrong... He ended up starting on the left foot and being kiddy korner from his partner and crushing my toes with his Cuban heel.... Luckily it was close to the ended of the dance and team all together.... So we get done dancing and I'm trying to tell him that he really needs to scoot in,,, and show him my bloodied up toes... But no he says: "leave me alone for a minute... not right now I'm trying to learn this..." So I let them show him this step and let him do it a couple times then say his name again... he follows with: " leave me alone don't talk to me go away" (or very close to that) So I finally gave up and said to hell with it... So I went to my next class and was trying to take off my Latin shoes which wasn't working out so well and put me in tears... so my coach sees gets mad at me then has someone escort me to the student health services where they clean me up and then put me in a freakin boot and tell me I now can't dance for 2 to 3 weeks.... Which in all reality.... NO ONE tells me that I can't dance anymore... this happened once upon a time... never again... So walking back I break into tears and told my mom it's probably just sprained not broken... so she decided that I could go 1 or 2 weeks instead of 2 or 3... So I'm hoping we are right so I don't get injured worse than I already am... So basically I help this kid out with all this crap and he repays me by making it so that I can't dance and then acts like a total jerk to me.... Oh and then for the first time he like acknowledges me in like a couple days since it happened.... he's like what happened?? Then he asks who did it and I was like someone... and he's like it wasn't me.... Yeah I had to freaking turn around before I decked the kid.... because I was in arms distance.... IT SUCKS!!! So now I'm sittin in Latin class watching everyone else do what I love to do Including him.... and I can't freakin do it because of him.... SUCKS!!!! Ok.... so 2. I really started falling for this guy that is a really good example to me, reminds me what I really actually want in life and in a guy, respects me, in awesome to me, spends a lot of time with me.... Even though I was planning on not falling for anyone right now and just taking care of myself for a while... but said that if something happened I'd do my best and just go with it, that way I didn't loose out on a chance of something that might end up being a good thing.... then I just found out that he is dating a girl that I used to be friends with that I very well know can be a heart breaker because she dated my best friend when we were younger... Yeah I don't like her anymore and it sucks... especially because she isn't even in the country until close to the end of the next month.... but now does that mean that all the time that I get to spend with him now is going to be gone when she comes home?? The worst thing... I found this out because I seen her picture on the background of his phone like 2 days after we did a whole dinner and movie night thing together among other things.. I seen it when we were spending time together, so the next day I checked her profile and it's a picture of them in front of the temple and her relationship said that she was in one.... So I finally just got the courage up to ask him about it and whether or not they were really dating today... so he tells me and then he asks this doesn't change our friendship though does it? I was like no never I'd never let anything come in between and ruin the friendship that we have, which is true... but it totally bites because I know that he knows I like him... and we have amazing chemistry on and off the dance floor... and awhile ago I swore that I'd never date any dancers again... and then finally one proved to be totally and completely different and not stuck up and not a slut or whatever the crap.... and he's taken.... can I just say I truly and completely believe and stand behind the Quote: ALL MEN ARE LIKE PARKING SPACES! ALL THE GOOD ONES ARE EITHER TAKEN OR HANDICAPPED!!!! LOL Any who this just goes back to the whole post of I wish I could just dance and not have to deal with anything else in life like dating or whatever the hell else there is...... Ok well I'm really tired of typing and class is going to be ending soon anyways....I just want you all to know that I love you and thank you for everything that you've all done for me and given to me... Thank you for being there for me... I'll try to write again soon and hopefully next time I'll have something more positive to write about.... Oh I know... I'll do a post all dedicated to my little snuggle bug Damian Johnathon Crawley... But to do this I want to post a bunch of pictures... so once I get those then I will post it! Ok love you all ttyl Peace ~Kim

Just Dance.

Ok so I totally just had a moment of total and complete eye opening experience.... And it kinda sucks.... You know how sometimes when you're wanting something so bad and you almost have it but to finish getting there you have to loose something else you love to have that thing.... Or like when a dancer is getting ready for a big show... and it's either have this one chance and take the opportunity to go out with this amazing guy or practice for your show.... it's one or the other and you have to chose? Or the fact that you know you had the chance for something that could have possibly been amazing... and you couldn't take it because you had other "responsibilities"? And it's something you want so bad you can see yourself in that situation.... but then someone finally wakes up and makes you smell Utah Lake stench around you and you realize that it was a dream and that's all it'll ever be? Thats the moment I just had.... So my whole life I'd always want to talk to my mom and sometimes I'd wait till she'd get in bed and start to go to sleep and that's when I'd go in and lay next to her and do dumb things to not let her sleep because I really want to talk to her about something but either I didn't realize that I did or what it was about or just couldn't find the right words to start off... I know she knows what I'm talking about... because she caught me doing this tonight... and I just layed there and I said idk if there really is anything I want right now... I just wanted to come lay in her with you for a min..... Well little did I know that my subconcious self that likes to not let me in on a little secret until it's ready to either let me figure it out on my own or just spill it out like some dumb story....yeah it had a moment to just spill the beans tonight and open my own eyes up to something that I think I've finally realized and just never wanted to admit to it..... something that I've been dreaming about but finally just admited that I'll never probably get it... Anywho so this person we'll call her Kimberly, so Kimberly goes off and starts talking about how she just wishes she could dance.. just dance like she used to and just have dance. That's all there was to her life... that and her family. That's it. 2 things that meant so much to her... the answer to all of her problems. Just turn music on and let her go. She just talked about how it used to be.... Just dancing... no extra responsibilities to worry about... no job to have to work to earn the money to dance... no job in the middle of the day to take you away from the one thing that you've always loved and that will always be there... No dumb payments that you have to earn the money for by working... No free time to try to analyze what is going on in your life and where you're supposed to go from here... No sleepless nights wondering where did my life go? thinking what if... questioning when is it finally going to happen for me? When will I truly be happy again? And learning that that day might never come.... Thinking I'll never be able to see that rainbow that I saw that day after winning that trophy in front of the only people that really matter in my life. My family... I'll never be that kind of happy again... Realizing that yeah I finally made it to somewhere that's going to let me travel a little bit. Something that I'm more stoked about that so many things I've been stoked about... But realizing that I'll get to go there and it'll be amazing and absolutely wonderful... But I don't get to continue on to other places... Yeah sure she can talk all she wants about being this amazing aunt that just dances all day and just shows the world that you just need to do what you love and soemthing that you're good at and that things will be ok... the cool aunt that will travel all the corners of the earth to bring back cool stories and toys and pictures to always think about... Cool places that you can dream about... that she brought you a piece of back... Have little ones say I want to be like Aunt Kimini because she is amazing at something and she gets to go all these cool places that she once dreamed about too... These amazing wonderlands that she always wanted to go and now she's been.... The girl that was able to just walk away from so many things so that she could actually go after her one thing that she wants more than anything right now in life... and that's to just dance... To be able to dance all day without something coming into the back of your head saying you have to stop now and go back to your real mundane life where nothing that you really truly desire to happen right now like you want it to... So its hard to try to explain it from a third person so I'm just going to full out just say what I want to say... like a real journal entry.... I just want to dance. One simple sentence, one simple statement, but one dream that seems impossible... I just want to dance. Why? because It lets me be me... Dancing doesnt judge me, dancing doesn't look down on me, dancing is the thing that makes me so happy. I want to be there I want to make it to the top someday... not in a few years not in a generation and not in my dreams. I want to be there I want to dance how I've always dreamed of it. I want to make some little girl fall in love with dancing just like I did when I was a young child. I just want to dance.. I want to travel. I want to live my life to the fullest and go to all these amazing places that I see in my dreams. I want to actually be where I can dream myself to be. I don't want to see myself in a cropped picture in front of a background that I've never been. I want to go and live and smell the air their I want to be able to see these places first hand with my own eyes... Not from someone elses camera... from my own. I want to be able to have dance consume my life like it once did. Where I didn't have to worry about what some guy thought of me. Or how to say a stupid sentence to that kid in my class.. just to what? Get stepped on and thrown out all over again? No. I want to not have the time to think of the what ifs. I don't want to have the free time to think of how happy it makes me when I see that beautiful new baby boy Damian. And how when I cry because he is such a miracle and a precious thing and how much I love him... I don't want to think everytime I see him... I want one of my own. I want to be a mom. I want my own family. I want to have a miracle of my own in my own life. No I want to be able to see him and give him so much of the same love I'd give my own child, and still be able to give him the world from my own pocket. from my self to him.. Teach him things that you'd only learn if you were to travel to those other lands that are far away. I want to have my time so consumed that I can just hold of on my own or put that dream aside so that I can concetrate on having and accomplishing the things that I have to while I'm alone. While I have the chance to not have a shadow telling me where to go and what to do... I just want to dance. I want to see myself progress and look the way I look in my dreams. I want that to be a reality. The realization behind that is in all these places and these pictures or thoughts of me being in a far off land where I can just be me, I can just go and live my life and prove to myself that I can do Something for me... it's all just a dream.... yeah I'm on the tour team and we are going to blackpool and france and maybe spain.... but that's not everywhere I want to be and go... we'll have a schedule a limit... a time frame... I don't want that... I can dream and see myself there but then someone wakes me up. And I realize that that's the only way I'll ever see those places that's the only way I'll ever see myself like that.... I have other things in my life that I have to worry about... than to just be able to dance. One simple verb. To Dance. I don't know if anyone really understand what those 2 words mean to me... how bad right now I just want to Dance and do nothing else... To be able to accomplish something that I want something for me.. To go all those places for me and to be happy. That is the overall thing we all want and are striving for right? The pursuit of Happiness... I'm on that pursuit right now... just not giving it my all because I'm to scared. That Idk what I'd do without all the what if's going through my head... What could I accomplish if I could stop only seeing myself there... in a dream and finally see myself there for real? What then? I just want to dance and be able to forget everthing else and just go with it all.... just follow the flow of life.... to life out the one dream that most are so scared to live out... and just go for it... just stop being scared. just drop the things out of your life that aren't going to get you there and just go for it... just live your life the way you want to... in the minute and just free.... One day maybe I'll acheive that... maybe I won't but for now... I just want to dance... And I realized that it could be a real possibility that I might never be able to once again... Just Dance... I might never see myself in those places... I might actually regret things.... If I ask myself, If you die tomorrow will you be happy with how you ended, will you be happy with your life or how the whole picture was? and the fact that my answer would be no.... That's when I ask.... what is there to really live for unless you're going to just go for it? What is the point of being here if you're not truly happy? Why am I still here putting myself through the pain of reality that I am not ok if I never make it where I want to make it... I can't just say it's ok.. No problem... Not anymore... Not when my answer is no. I just want to escape from everything else and just dance... and never stop... never think what if I break my ankle tomorrow? I'd say that is impossible. You cant you must just dance. and never ever stop. Dance and you'll get there. Dance and you'll be happy. Find that one thing you're passionate about and just go for it. That's what dance is for me... So why can I not just dance. Why can't people see that that is all I want. I just want to dance. And forget of everything that I don't want to think of... just dance and not remember... just dance and not have the what ifs.... Who cares about that 'amazing boy' when you can dance and have the ultimate goal acheived. That's what I want. From now on when anyone asks what do you want. I will remember that sentence that simple phrase. I just want to Dance. I want to not be afraid anymore. My parents recently bought me a quote that is framed and just amazing and it's sitting in front of me and everytime I look at it I want to cry because I know for a fact I'm not spreading my wings like I need to... I'm not learning or moving where I want to go. I'm to afraid. It says: Until you spread your wings, You will have no idea how far you can fly! I will spread my wings and stop being afraid... because I know that if I do and once I start flying I'll never stop I'll go where I want to go. I'll see what I want to see and I'll dance when I want to dance. And nothing will ever stop me again. But until then... Reality of the real world must take place... :( and what you don't know is how unhappy I really am. Only I am finally catching a glimps of it.... and I still don't even understand it.... One day when I can Just Dance... Everything will fall into place... and that is something I just know and I can feel with my whole being. And that is where I will leave this entry. I'm tired of crying, I'll drowned out my new laptop if it gets any wetter... and that is me being honest.... oh well.... Peace out Hommies... Kim

One Word Answers

Ok so I figured what the heck what could it hurt to do a short one word thing found on a friends blog.... Here goes nothing...

One Word Answers

Might as well do it too.... 1. Where is your cellphone? floor 2. Where is your significant other? unknown 3. Your hair? straight 4. Your mother? tired 5. Your father? sleeping 6. Your favorite thing? Damian 7. Your dream last night? Performance 8. Your favorite drink? Lemonade 9. Your dream/goal? Love 10. The room you're in? Front 11. Your hobby? Dance 12. Your fear? Everything 13. Where do you want to be in 6 years? Wonderland 14. Where were you last night? Sick 15. What you're not? Awakened 16. Muffins? Blueberry 17. Where you grew up? HappyValley (sshhhh pretend its only 1, lol) 18. The last thing you did? Accounts 19. What are you wearing? PJ's 20. Your TV? Off 21. Your pets? Outside 22. Your computer? AMAZING!!!! 23. Your life? Mundane 24. Your mood? Confused 25. Missing someone? SnuggleBug!!!! 26. Your car? SHINY!!!! 27. Something you're not wearing? underwear...JK um.... jewelery 28. Last summer? Lost 29. Like someone? ONE? lol 30. Your favorite color? Black!! 31. When was the last time you laughed? Hour 32. Last time you cried? Yesterday 33. Who will do this? Question?

Some random Surveys that I filled out...

Survey # 1 1. First thing you wash in the shower? *my hair 2. What color is your favorite hoodie? *green 3. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? *yes 4. Do you plan outfits? *sometimes... 5. How are you feeling RIGHT now? *not entirely sure... sorta confuzzled at the current moment though... 6. Whats the closest thing to you thats red? *my toe nails :D 7. Do you say aim or a-i-m? *aim but i dont use it 8. Tell me about the last dream you remember having *It was about my ADORABLE nephew that I didn't get to see yesterday. 9. Did you meet anybody new today? *yes 10. What are you craving right now? *Holding Damian!!! 11. Do you floss? *sometimes lol not my strongest thing... 12. What comes to mind when I say cabbage? *rabbits 13. When was the last time you talked on aim? *i dont use aim 14. Are you emotional? *can be 15. Would you dance to the taco song? *whats that? 16. Have you ever counted to 1,000? *yep thanks to my brothers 17. Do you bite into your ice cream or just lick it? *lick it 18. Do you like your hair? *yeah usually 19. Do you like yourself? *i guess... 20. Have you ever met a celebrity? *yep 21. Do you like cottage cheese? *usually depends on my mood 22. What are you listening to right now? *the other people in the call center 23. How many countries have you visited? *one... but I'm traveling Europe next year!!!! AAAAAHHHHH 24. Are your parents strict? *no, they know im an adult and make my own decisions 25. Would you go sky diving? *maybe idk yet 26. Would you go out to eat with George W. Bush? *sure I guess 27. Would you throw potatoes at him? *no 28. Is there anything sparkly in the room you’re in? *my skirt!!! 29. Have you ever been in a castle? *not a real one 30. Do you rent movies often? *nope, not anymore... my parents sometimes do 31. Who sits behind you in your math class? *I'm not in math right now 32. Have you made a prank phone call? *Once when i was young 33. Do you own a gun? *um... no comment... 34. Can you count backwards from 74? *yeah if i wanted to 35. Who are you going to be with tonight? *Dancers.. 36. Brown or white eggs? *white? i dunno arent they the same? 37. Do you own something from Hot Topic? *yes a few things actually 38. Ever been on a train? *not a real real train 39. Ever been in love? *yes 40. Do you have a cell-phone? *yes 41. Are you too forgiving? *yes I used to be incredibly forgiving but not anymore though... I sorta trained myself to not be forgiving... now I need to find the happy medium... 42. Do you use chap stick? *yes 43. What is your best friend doing tomorrow? *i dunno working... 44. Can you use chop sticks? *yes 45. Ever have cream puffs? *of course 46. Have you ever seen The Butterfly Effect? *yep watched it at Jake's one night 47. What was the last question you asked? *idk.... are you going to see damian 48. What was the last CD you bought? *idk it was like a billion years ago. 49. Boys or girls? *whats that supposed to mean? do i like boys?, no I like Men. 50. What is your bus number for school? *I don't ride the bus I drive my new car that I just bought 51. Is your hair curly? *no it's wavy. 52. Last time you cried? *Sunday 53. Ever walked into a wall? *yep :P 54. Do looks matter? *honestly? I think they do to some point for everyone... 55. Have you ever bought anything from Pac Sun? *no....? 56. Have you ever slapped someone? *oh yes... 57. Favorite time of the year? *Summer 58. Favorite color? *Black, Blue, Pink 59. Are you sarcastic? *nope never... 60. Do you have any tattoos? *nope 61. The last person you held hands with? *Tyler...I think he was the last person... 62. Do you sleep with the TV on? *sometimes 63. Where was your default picture taken at? *Laguna Beach in Cali 64. Do you hate or dislike more than 3 people? *no 65. Do you like your life right now? *i dunno, sure 66. How often do you talk on the phone? *often 67. What is your favorite animal? *bunny wabbit... or a dog... 68. What was the most recent thing you bought? *lunch for me and my mom 69. Do you have good vision? *yep! 70. Can you hula hoop? *used to be able to... i'm retarded now so no.. 71. Could you ever forgive a cheater? *I did once before. I won't make that same mistake twice. 72. Do you have a job? *yep 2! 73. Can you handle the truth? *id rather be told the truth than a lie and yes I can handle the truth even if it hurts.... 74. What are you wearing? *clothes, a peasant blouse and a skirt. :) 75. Have you ever crawled through a window? *yes lol a couple... Survey #2 You must be honest to take this survey! Honestly, are you in love right now? *no, but i do love people just not in that way Honestly, what color is your underwear? *hot pink Honestly, what's on your mind right now? *um... for some odd reason one of my friends is on my mind but also my brand new nephew. Honestly, what are you doing right now? *waiting for a student to call me so that I can log back out and help joyce clean the qui out... Honestly, what did you do today? *Went to classes, danced, went to breakfast with a friend, worked, ran to the bank, got food for me and my mom... now I'm workin again Honestly, do you think you are attractive? *sometimes Honestly, have you done something bad today? *depends on your definition of what qualifies of being bad.. Honestly, do you watch Disney channel? *sometimes if I'm like home sick laying on the couch and flipping channels... Honestly, are you jealous of someone right now? *kinda Honestly, what makes you happy most of the time? *dancing and being with those I love Honestly, do you bite your nails? *nope Honestly, what is your mood right now? *happy and a little confuzzled Honestly, who do you want to see at this very moment? *DAMIAN!!!! Honestly, do you have a deep dark secret? *oh yes I have a few actually Honestly, do you hate someone right now? *not hate just don't like... Honestly, who/what do you want to hug right now? *once again DAMIAN!!! Honestly, do your wrists hurt? *nope Honestly, are you in denial? *not anymore Honestly, wouldn't you rather be having sex right now? *well duh! who wouldnt? hello that's a no brainer... especially because I'm at work.... id anyone who would chose work over sex Honestly, is it easier to talk on Myspace than in person? *id rather talk in person Honestly, does anyone like you? *i think so, but im very confused in that department Honestly, is it going anywhere with them? *I don't really know... but for some odd reason I sorta hope that it does.. Honestly, did you answer all these questions honestly? *yes i did Survey #3 does your profile song have any special meaning? A couple of them what song is stuck in your head? I'll walk, by: Bucky Covington midnight, who were you texting? No one I was sleeping! what are you most worried about? Everything how different are you from three years ago? Oh very very different. let a good friend/ex/bestfriend go this year? yep... when is the next time you will see the person you like? um... I'm not saying exactly when... but in a few hours or so.... when was the last time you cried really badly? Um a few weeks ago... in August do you like your life at the moment? I wouldn't trade it for anyone else's but there is somethings that I wish I could change... are you currently frustrated with someone? not really, unless myself counts... do you have a friend that starts with the letter X? nope you want to get married? yes I do. is anything alive in your room? do spiders count? I'm almost positive that there are spiders in there.... found another web. do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to? yeah were any of your past relationships worth it? yes they were been in a hospital this year? yes... but not for me I was there for Damian according to your ex, are you pretty? Yep what's the last piercing you got? The top of my right ear... but I decided to take it out.... do you know if anyone likes you? um... no actually.. I wish that I knew about someone... but I guess I'm not supposed to know... talk to your exes? some of them, a few I still consider friends and want in my life... have you ever kissed someone whose name starts with a c? yes do you have trust issues? yeah, I think everyone does. do you currently have a hickey? nope is your dad a jerk? NO WAY ever been to Alaska? No someday maybe honestly, what are you sick of? Being so confused. have you ever regretted letting someone go? I used to, but not anymore who is the last person to sleep in your bed? me. how long does it take for you to get ready? Depends on the day. in the past week have you gotten your hair cut? nope whose bed did you sleep in last? mine has someone disappointed you recently? Yeah do you believe exes can really ever be "just friends"? yeah how long is your hair? idk pretty long I guess... past my shoulders do you still turn to your parents for advice? yep all the time ever have surgery? yep a few are your eyes the same color as your mom's or dad's? both if i'm correct. been caught doing something you weren't supposed to do? Who hasn't? are you still friends with people from kindergarten? um... not really... do you want to see someone this very minute? um.. it doesn't actually matter... I'm fine... it's not like I'm not going to see them later anyways... has someone of the opposite sex ever told you they loved you and meant it? yeah.... but it doesn't change anything now... what do you think of your number 2 on your top friends? He's amazing!! last thing to piss you off? um.... myself... do you like the person you are becoming? for the most part sure.. name something you have to do tomorrow? Watch a movie. :)

Quick update for ya'll!!

Everything is going really well. I'm really enjoying being on tour team. So stoked to go to world champs next year and compete!! Then tour Europe!! I wish I could tour even more than I'll get to.. oh well maybe one day.... There is also a possibility of us going to china but we'll see...... School is semi going ok... I'm already a little bit behind in a couple classes but that is because I spent all of last weekend at the hospital instead of doing my homework... My nephew was born On Friday September 5, 2008. 6 lbs 3 Oz's. 17 1/2 inches tall... He is so freaking cute and adorable!!! He had some complications but is doing Wonderful now... he weighs about 5 1/2 lbs now... There is absolutely Nothing to him but skin and A WHOLE TON of extra skin lol. It is so cute though!!! I'll make a photo album with photobucket.com as soon as I can... I'm not sure when I'll be able to yet... Plus I want A BILLION pictures on there of him so yeah... you'll see him soon enough. His name is Damian Johnathon Crawley... He looks just like his daddy with some traits from his mommy that do stick out as well. He is the most precious thing I know. I love him so much and I'm totally going to spoil him.... Not to mention I'm totally going to be the freakin awesome aunt that travels the world and brings back all these cool foreign toys and all sorts of weird things for him to have. He's absolutely amazing in every way. So I've decided that this is the year that I spoil myself and Especially spoil Damian!!! I got a new laptop, a new ipod touch, a new car, a new this and a new that, oh and I'm remodeling my room like I've always wanted too... like totally painting and revamping the arrangement and EVERYTHING!!! it's going to pretty much be the bomb!! That's what I'll be doing for Christmas this year lol.. :) I'm so EXCITED!!! It's pretty much going to just look hot!! Anyways... my ipod is done restoring so I need to head back down to my office in the basement that has absolutely no wireless connection until I buy my own airport, so that I can have it.. So yeah got to go get back to my work and my assignments.... but know that I love you all!!! And I hope you are all doing wonderful!! Give me updates on yourself too!! or send me the emails when you post something new on your blog ok? Ok well Loves!!! Peace, Kim