Bored for a minute

1. Where did you take your profile pic? my house 2. What exactly are you wearing right now? Um my tinkerbell black pants, and a green shirt... 3. What is your current problem? I miss Brady... and hope he's able to get back on for a min... 4. What makes you happy most? Brady 5. What's the name of the song that you're listening to? I can only imagine 6. Any celeb you would marry? Brady Lunnen.... Hey he's a celeb in my book!!! :) And I am marrying him. :D 7. Name someone with the same birthday as you? Kenzy 8. Ever sang in front of a large audience? When I was in jr high I sang for my ward talent show... 9. Has anyone ever said you looked like a celebrity? idk... maybe maybe not... 10. Do you still watch kiddy movies or kiddie TV shows? Heck yeah man!! 11. Do you speak any languages? english and very little bit of spanish... but I'm relearning... 12. Has anyone you've been really close with passed away? grandpa and yes others as well... 13. Do you ever watch MTV? nope 14. What's something that really annoys you? Not being able to give Brady real hugs and feel his arms around me right now... =============== Chapter 1: =============== 1. Middle Name Mae 2. Nickname(s): Squirt, Kimmi, Piglet, Beautiful(Only 1 person is allowed to use this nickname, :) ) and many MANY more. 3. Current location: Living room 4. Eye color: hazel =============== Chapter 2: =============== 1. Do you get along with your parent(s): Yep 2. Are your parents married/separated/divorced married 3. Do you have any Siblings? Yes =============== Chapter 3: Favorites =============== 1. Ice Cream: too many, plus I'm not really big on ice cream I have to be in the right mood. 2. Season: summer, so I don't usually get cold, so I don't have to deal with my reynouds... (long story ask if you really want to know.) 3. Shampoo/conditioner: different ones that we use at the salon. =============== Chapter 4: Do You.. =============== 1. Dance in the shower? yeah lol... only sometimes though.. 2. Do you write on your hand? yep 3. Call people back? I try to usually 4. Believe in love? DUH 6. Any bad habits? yeah, a few... I'm working on them though 7. Any mental health issues: Um yeah especially tonight... lol just ask my mom 8. Miss anyone? more than I've ever missed anything or anyone in my entire life and I know that it's not going to change as long as he's away from me... but such is life... =============== Chapter 5: Have You.. =============== 1. Broken a bone? yep 2. Sprained stuff? more than you know 3. Had physical therapy? yeah 4. Gotten stitches? yep... to sew me back together after my surgery 5. Taken painkillers: yeah lol 6. Gone scuba diving or snorkeling? no but I want to someday 7. Been stung by a bee? yeah tooooo many times... 8. Thrown up at the dentist: nope I'm a tough girl!!!! 9. Sworn in front of your parents? lol yes sad to say it... I did about an hour ago... :( 10. Had detention: Nope never... lol YES!!! Hehe.. I mean it's me come on??? How could I not? I got my first detention in the 2nd grade.... =============== Chapter 6: Who/What was the last =============== 1. Movie you saw: Igor!!! 2. Three people to text you? Jill, Carol, Christine 3. Person you called: well the last 2 calls I've recieved is Brady and Weston, before then I called my mom 4. Person you hugged: my mommy 5. Person you tackled? idk... the last person I tackled was Brady before he left 6. Person you talked to on IM? Brady 7. Thing you touched? My laptop 8. Thing you ate? Salmon 9. Thing you drank: Kool-aid!!! 10. Thing you said: That's awesome!!!!

Seeing isn't always believing, but it's sure nice!!! :)

So... :) I've had the opportunity to see my VERY HANDSOME MAN!!! On the computer a couple times... Once while he was at the airport and once last night... Can I just say I LOVE HIM!!! He's so amazing!!! It's really nice to be so blessed with technology now days. Before you only had letters... before that, telegrams, and before that Nothing!! I'd DIE!! I've decided that the Lord is a VERY nice Lord, he blesses me way to much!! :) Not only do I get letters, I get to talk to Brady on the phone, and now I get to see him and talk to him on the computer as well!! Of course none of this beats having him right next to me holding my hand or putting his arm around me... But for now, it's awesome!! Last night while I was talking to him we were able to pray together like we would before he left. And it was neat to be able to kneel where I was and put my comp in front of me. While he said the prayer I placed my hands in front of me as if he were kneeling with me and we were taking each other's hands and bow our heads. It was really nice to be able to say amen, open my eyes and see him looking at me at the same time. I got this rushed feeling of he's SO close to me I can almost feel him!! I wanted to give him a hug SO bad!!! However He'll get LOTS and LOTS of hugs later on to make up for it! (promise) After that I got this idea that even though we both still had our work to do, we could still have the chat opened... so that while we both worked on what we needed to it was still as if he were sitting right next to me and visa versa. It was really NICE!! And before I went to bed it brought up the hymn Count Your Blessings to mind. It was really nice. He's really nice!! :) So That's a great GREAT blessing that I am receiving right now!! Being able to see my soldier, (even if it is a little bit blurry for both of us...) and hear his voice, puts a smile on my face that is not easily broken. I want Brady to know how much I love him! He's a great guy and a great inspiration to me. I always find myself trying to better myself in all that I do. And when I think about it and ask myself why I am, it always leads to one answer, one word, one thought, one person, my one and only Love! BRADY! He makes me want to continue to better myself so that I can feel as though I deserve him, more so than I feel right now... He is such an amazing man, in all that he does. He's a gentleman, he's a missionary(yes still spreading the gospel even though in the army now), he's a great example, he's the bestest friend, and he's the one and only man I want to spend the rest of Eternity with. He's a wonderful person in an All around kinda way, if ya know what I mean!!! I love him in everyway that I know how!!!! Hopefully this will be an ok picture for me to post of him... It's one of the more recent ones that I have... I just love him so much!!! So one of my appointments today canceled... so one of my friends that goes to school with me came up and said... I think we should cut and change your hair... And mind you I've been hearing this for oh...3 and a half months... yes since I started!!! lol And I've changed it a couple times... for myself and for a couple of them to quit pestering... However when Haley said it today it was different and I actually wanted a change and needed something different so we did something different... I'll post 2 pics lol... One that's a normal one and one funny one that we took. :) Hope you like it!! Comment on it please!! It's different then I've ever done and I need some feed back!!! :) Love to all g2g ~KIM

Wow

So I had this really overwhelming experience the other day... Tuesday night I had a dream about Brady and I going to the temple and spending time there together. Then the next day... I was getting ready for my fashion show at my school. (which I totally won by the way!! Got a few hundred dollars worth of prizes!! More later) And I went home for lunch, as always because it saves money. I went and checked the mail and there was a letter from my soldier!!! YAY!! I was so excited! So I went in the house and opened it up... I started reading it and I got this very strong feeling like I was going to have an answer confirmed again... So I kept reading on.. By the second page I was all teary eyed. By the end of the letter I was weeping like a little baby. Brady is so great and he treats me SO good!! Better than a queen. It's hard sometimes because I still have several words in my head from when I was abused at a younger age telling me that I don't deserve a good guy. And that I'd never ever get someone who would treat me right or as a daughter of God. I struggle a lot with it because I want to believe that I do... but sometimes every now and then those words are replayed in my mind.. I wish that they would just go away but I know that it's one of my trials that I chose in the premortal life to deal with. Brady continues to help me with this task. He knows I struggle so he is always trying to reassure me and then show me how much he loves me doubled. :) He's amazing and I don't know how I got to be such a lucky girl to end up with him. I can't even say that he's the man of my dreams and the one I've always wanted... because he's better. My dreams weren't even this good. :) This is how I feel. :) BUT.... We aren't together right now. So because of that, we meet each other every night in our dreams... So for the meantime... my dreams are better for a short time.. Because my life would be nothing without him in it. So Brady graduated from Basic Training yesterday!! YAY I'm SO proud of him!!! I wasn't able to make it because of the expense and school. However I'm planning on a road trip to see him while he is stationed in AZ. I can't wait to be able to see his smiling face in person again... :) I know that he's doing well and hopefully he'll be able to get over the boot camp crud soon and not have to deal with that horrible cough anymore... So pray for him to overcome it please! The fashion show that I did was through the salon that I'm at right now. We did Movie themes. So we chose a movie, a character from it and then had to have a model. We had to dress them up, hair, makeup, costuming, etc... I chose to do Mrs. Doubtfire. :) My amazing brother Tim helped me out by being my model. It turned out AWESOME!!! He did a very good job at being Mrs. Doubtfire. And we ended up winning because of it!! Which is GREAT!! I won some pretty great stuff too. and next time my brother comes into the salon he gets a free service. It's pretty cool! When I get the video back from having it transferred to a DVD I'll post a DVD of his performance down the run way!!!! :) It was great!!!! But for the mean time.. here's a sorta ok picture from a camera phone. :)well I'm going to head for now because I'm supposed to have a client coming in here soon.. I'll post again soon!! With some more pictures, video's etc. Love to all!!!! Kim

Sorry!!! Here's an Update!

So sorry it's been like a month since I've last written... Here's some new things that's happened or about to happen... 1) I received a letter, a certificate, a lapel pin, and some stickers from the US ARMY. Supposedly my amazing fiance' wanted to recognize me for being a good support of him and a wonderful Army Spouse (funny we aren't technically married yet lol) But it's pretty much amazing!! I need to post some pictures but they are still on my camera right now... haha I'll try to do that tomorrow or something like that. 2) Brady phased from White to Blue, which is AWESOME!!!! So He's gotten lots of extra privileges, one including more time on his phone, which I'M TOTALLY LOVING!!! It's been great to be able to hear his voice (although he's gotten the Boot Camp Crud as they call it and his voice is horse and he has a cold as well.) 3) He's graduating from Basic Training on Thursday the 26th of next week!! YAY!!! I'm so incredibly proud of him it's not even funny!!! He's so strong in everything he does and that's something I look up to! 4) I had a meeting with the Florist, Val, my mom and sister in law, it went great!! And we've gotten everything figured out and the wedding planning is going really good!! I think I finally found my Jewelry that I'm going to be wearing but I want to try it on with the dress to see... now I'm just trying to decided between a couple different Tiara's. :) YAY!!! Go wedding planning!! lol 5)My schooling is going great!!!! I'm on the Clinical floor and doing AWESOME!!! I have a lot of clients already calling in and starting to request me because I've been doing a really good job!!! It's been great!! If any of you want to come in and Have a trim, hair cut, color, manicure, pedicure, waxing, or whatever you want to think of, lol, Just call in at (801)785-3113 and request an appointment with Kim. I go to school at Capelli Institute of Hair in Pleasant Grove. :) It's Way fun!!!! Look forward to seeing people that I know come in and visit me! Until I get a job I'm usually doing both day school and night school right now so I can usually take appointments whenever it's best for you. 6) The family is doing great!! Well both families lol! Damian is growing into a cute little boy and he's progressing SO fast, when it comes to somethings we really do believe that he is very very smart as in a Baby Genius!! And he's SOOOO Cute!!! It's totally working for him lol. Ellie is also becoming a beautiful little girl, just like her sisters and her mother!!! I love Brady's whole family!! They are really being a great help with me as far as him being gone, they are also very supportive of us and our decisions which I really appreciate and thank them for!!! I'm very thankful to the Lord for all the ways he continues to bless my life, whether it be through school, my family, or Brady. I couldn't ask for more right now in life, (well maybe to see him... but I'll be seeing him soon enough!) I promise to try to work on doing better and I'm going to post some recent pictures of all of us that I have!!! (Yes I have some really recent pictures of him that are amazing!! MY SOLDIER, is SO HOT!!! lol :) And very VERY handsome!!!) I love him very much and look forward to our life that we will be sharing together! G2G work on more homework, Love to all of you!!!! ~Kim

My Fiance is AMAZING!!!

So here's a quick update, I was able to talk to my soldier on Valentines Day, that was great!!! I then went to his Uncle Jeff's on Sunday for a Mardi Gras Party. On the way down there Brady's mom Val, told me she had something for me from Brady. It was a Valentine's Day Present... So she gave it to me. It was a real Ruby in the Shape of a Tear Drop, it's Beautiful!!! She then gave me the CUTEST purse for my BDAY the next day. From the sound of his letters and his voice Brady seems to be doing great out at Fort Leonardwood MO. He is doing great and progressing through training Wonderfully. When I talked to him on Saturday he had a cough and a cold which means his immune system is down. I mention this because they are having a health concerns and safety cautions going on, on the Fort right now. A couple men have gotten sick and died within only a couple weeks of each other. I ask you all to pray for him and his health to improve. I know how he is and he will just say, "I'm doing fine and I'll be OK." He will just push through it. However being his fiance, I'm allowed to worry lol so with the health concerns and stuff I just worry that his immune system is already low and vulnerable it does somewhat concern me. So I am also going to be doing a fast on Sunday, not only for him, but the loved ones of the men who died as well as everyone who is currently located at the Fort, and for all of their health that they will all be ok. So the next thing that has happened was that I had my Birthday on Monday. And my parents and grandparents went to the Draper Temple open house with me. It was a very neat experience for me as well as an important spiritual experience that I have had concerning not only Brady and I's plans of marriage, but also the career path that I have chosen to go with for now. I know that the directions that I am taking my life, with getting married as well as becoming a cosmetologist is where I need to be. On Wed. His Battle Buddy(Not named just for safety cautions, he knows who he is though.) :) showed up to my school to make a special delivery. You see he had his wrist broken a short time ago, so he was sent home on a medical leave until it heals and then he will return to training. Before he left, Brady wrote a short letter, and took one of the pictures that I sent to him and wrote me something very special on the back of it. He gave this to his Battle Buddy with a map to my house. His Battle Buddy told me he would have come on Monday, on my BDAY however his car was having problems. So he and his wife and daughter drove down on Wed. during the day. He got to my house to realize that no one was here. So he sat there for a few mins thinking and raking his brain to try to remember anything and everything Brady had told him about me. He finally remembered that I was attending beauty/cosmetology school but he couldn't remember the name of mine. So he called 6 different schools in Utah County until they finally said yes she is a student here. :) a relief for him, and then they gave him directions to our school and they came there. When they walked in I heard one of my classmates as she walked towards me (I was at the rinsing bowls learning something new) she said Kim there is a Special Delivery for you, and at first I thought that he was just someone who worked for somewhere, until I seen the cast on his wrist and his wife and child. I automatically walked up to him and shook his hand. He then proceeded to hand me a gorgeous vase with a dozen Beautiful roses in it, along with some other flowers. I then noticed the note that was in the middle of all the roses.... I read it and the picture and it just continues to show me just how amazing this man that I'm planning on marrying is. He has taught me that it really is possible to love someone more when you feel your heart and soul couldn't love them more. He never seizes to amaze me, and he is continually treating me even better than people treat queens. And more often then not I feel as if I don't deserve it, however when I tell him that he always just smiles and says, "yes you do, and that is the way you should be treated and you will always be treated by me." That is one promise I know that he will never break, then again I've never known of any promise that he has broken. So technically all the promises he's ever made me are just as strong and likely to be kept since the moment he chose to make them. It's just how he is. As far as the wedding plans are going, they are going great. I'm trying to finish putting together my own wedding planning binder, and it's coming along very well and I have it all separated and all the different sections I need to have to help me more efficiently and productively plan Brady and my wedding to the best of our abilities and make it Perfect! It's going to be the Best day of my life I know that for sure!!! To be able to marry the man that I love more than anything and know that I will be with him and sealed to him no matter what for time and all eternity will be the best gift that I will ever receive. And with our date being December 29th that's right after Christmas, and honestly I know that it's going to be the best Christmas EVER!! What' better Christmas than one where you not only join another family, but start one of your own, as well as getting a new last name. The one that belongs to the man that you love. :) Sounds pretty great to me!!!! So yes the date is going to be the 29th of December of 2009. We are hoping(I still have to call and reserve a spot) to be sealed in the LDS Mt. Timpanogos Temple. I'm very VERY excited!!!! Something new that is going on in my life other than everything in school going great, was that my Bishop called me in for a meeting last Sunday, and it was to receive a calling, a Relief Society calling. He wants me to be able tot be more involved with the other women of the ward as well as the blessings of having a Relief Society calling, not only just to bless my life and help me learn from so many others, but to also help me to get ready for marriage and help to bless my future family. :) I'm very excited and I will be set apart next Sunday. :) I hope that everything goes well and that the Lord can help me to do the best job that I can do. Well I am off to bed now and I will post again when I get the chance and have more information for you. :) Prayers and love to all who read this!!! ~Kim

One Word~ Thanks Kathy

TYPE ONLY 1 WORD ... IT'S HARDER THAN YOU THINK!!!!

Here's what you're supposed to do... and please don't spoil the fun... copy and paste, delete my answers, type in your answers and tag people

Where is your cell phone? - Leg

Your significant other? - Missouri

Your hair? - ponytail

Your mother? - couch

Your father? - bathroom (lol)

Your favorite thing? - Brady

Your dream last night? - Can't

Your dream/goal? - Eternal/family ( lol first is my dream second is my goal... hehe)

The room you're in? - living

Your fear? - Loss

Where do you want to be in 6 years? - MOM!!!

Where were you last night? - Home

What you're not? - Tall (lol)

Muffins? - tons!

One of your wish list items? - Travel

Where did you grow up? - Utah

The last thing you did? - Typed

What are you wearing? - Jeans

Your TV? - Off

Your pet(s)? - Seven

Your computer? - MAC!!!

IF YOU JUST READ THIS THEN YOU'RE TAGGED!!! YOU'RE TURN TO DO IT!!

My Apology it's been awhile, this is what's up.

So how are you all doing?? I'm doing GREAT!!! Here is what is currently going on in my life: I'm going to school at Capelli's Institute of Hair, in Pleasant Grove. I LOVE IT!!! It's way fun and I'm learning A lot!! I've already done a few hair cuts, and hair dyes. I'm working on graduating early in December of this year... because... I'M GETTING MARRIED!!! We aren't Completely OFFICIALLY engaged yet... however before he left the state of Utah for his Military training he asked me to Marry him and I said yes. I said in a previous post that we were planning on waiting the full 2 years of his training and he decided that he didn't want to wait the full 2 years so we are planning on a December wedding this year. It will probably be right after Christmas so hopefully it will work out so people can come and visit us... Because.... Pretty much the day after we are married we will be moving the rest of our stuff to California. He will be stationed in Monterrey California for about a year or so for intense language training. He should be starting that around August... So we should be back by winter of next year... :'( something that I'm not exactly looking forward to. I know that I'll want to come home but I was hoping I'd be able to get away from the cold for at least one year... But I guess not... After he graduates like I said we will be moving back to Utah. So then I'll be able to chill and see all of you again... However I still have the rest of this year to spend time with you all as well!! I hope that we'll be able to before I leave. Hit me up sometime and we definitely will!! Other than starting my planning on the wedding and going to school... Writing my MAN!!! and trying to stay in touch with everyone!! WELL I'd love to make this longer but I've got to run to Salt Lake and pick up my Baloo... I've been driving a rental way to long I want my car back!!! So I'll keep you all updated every now and then if you want me to send you an automatic email every time I post so that you don't have to wonder if I have or not let me know your email account and I'll hook it up. :) Love to you all!!! TTYL Peace ~Kim

SSOOO.... How are you??

Yeah ok I know I suck at really staying up with this... A lot has just been going on and this just hasn't been a top priority for me. So here is my quick update. I'm not dancing anymore. I'm moving on with my life. I quit my job, I'm going to be transferring schools in January and do something else that I love to do. I'm dating the most amazing guy in the world and it's really serious. We are planning on spending the rest of our lives together, but we are going to wait a little while before we get married that way we can be better prepared financially, emotionally, and spiritually as individuals and as a couple. We study the gospel together and we spend as much time together as possible. He is leaving the beginning of January for Basic Training, and then he will go to AIT. then when he Comes home on leave we will probably make it official. then he is going to Cali for some language training where we will probably take turns going to see each other. Then we'll get married as soon as he is done with that. We want to be able to have a long courtship before we get married so that hopefully it will give us both the time we need to be able to learn a lot more about each other through talking, conversing, and visiting each other. But we shall wait and see what happens. We are both really excited about it all. We are a very goal oriented couple, so we are always making new goals for ourselves to work on and grow closer together while we do so. He treats me like I've never been treated before. In a way that is equivalent of how a queen is treated. He never seizes to amaze me in anything he does. Here are a couple pics of us...

It's been Awhile

Ok so I know it's been awhile since I've written anything so that's why I'm doing this now... Currently I'm laying in a hotel bed, in a suite... that costs like $500 for one night. Here's the story my uncle hasn't been able to come into town to see his son for awhile and his wife got sick so they ended up not being able to come in this weekend either.... so he asked my mom and me if we could please drive River out to him to see him. Of course we said yes. However... I didn't know this at first but he is pretty much paying us to lol... He is paying for our gas, our stay in this suite and everything... But even if he wasn't we still probably would have loved to do it. Something with me and my mom and traveling... we both love to... but neither of us really gets too.. that's what happens when you don't have very much money though... One day I will go anyways though.. I want to see the world and I shall... its no longer just something I've dreamed about well still do... it's officially on my goal list. not on the dream goal list either... the I will do this someday goal list. idk when but I will. So everything in life is actually going pretty good right now... I'm feeling so much happier. I have my testimony growing more each day and am receiving blessings that I never dreamed I would for learning to put God first in my life. By doing this I've learned that it keeps my family first in my life still... but in a different aspect that I couldn't see before... I'm learning more about myself than I ever have. I can now look back on my life and see things I could never see before. I am making a list of what I really want in my life and what I need in my life. And the more time goes by of course things change on occasion however I'm finding the things I want in my life to make more sense. When I wrote before about just wanting to dance... That was a childhood dream.. It was something I think I always dreamed of but knew would never be mine... its funny that all I wanted to do was dance... to dance all day and all night so that that's all I felt. I wanted to do that to hide how I felt. To hide my fears. To hide from myself. But by trying to push myself to do this... I ended up learning that I wasn't meant to do that.. I finally was able to grasp that I'm not supposed to be a dancer anymore... I will always be a dancer, I will always dance, I will always love it. But I've learned that there are more important things to life that dancing or one silly childhood dream. You see I learned to see that I had another dream long before I dreamed of Juilliard. I wanted to be a mom. I wanted to learn to be somebody important in someone else's life, someone like I have in mine. Dancing has been a big part of my life.. but it isn't my whole life. I reached my goals. I reached the top the hardest goals I had set.. I made the touring team at the University. And not only that but then I made the competing World Championship Latin Medley team. I was good enough for that. I touched the top... And you know what I found out when I did.... It's not what I really wanted anymore. It's not something my body could physically handle. It put me in pain. both physically and emotionally. So I finally did what I knew I needed to do, it was time. So I walked away. I did not quit I did not give up. I learned a new love, a new happiness. It was me. By subjecting myself to all that I was trying to do I was really running away from myself. I just didn't know it. You see I was to afraid. To afraid to let go of the past and to afraid to let go of what I knew and find something else. I got so comfortable in my past and in a world that never changed... All I did was danced and then had a negative life. And honestly that's not a good thing... I was to scared to let go of stupid things that had happened that I just wanted to try to dance to run away and hide my feelings... I wanted to try to just forget that you have to feel to really live. I now feel as if a burden were lifted off of my shoulders. My life is amazing. The people around me, my surroundings, myself. But I couldn't see that before. Now I can. And I can feel too. I'm learning the gift of forgiveness, and the gift of moving on and finding something like happiness again. But this time I know that there are consequences. I know that with Joy there does come pain. But if there were no pain, there would be no joy, and then there would be no life. You can't truly be happy until you learn that sometimes you do have to hurt... Opposites attract and the world can't exist without them. And neither can we. I know that with every time I'm happy there will probably be a moment of sadness at some point of my life... but you know I've learned to be ok with that. I've learned that even with keeping the future in mind and never loosing sight of what you want you can still just live in the moment and not worry to much. Just like right now. I'm happy, maybe happier than I've been in a long time... maybe even since I was a young girl and I was up in the canyon with my family and I caught every ones capacity for their licenses for fishing and no one else caught a thing... lol My life is good. And I'm good. I have an amazing family. My dad provides for us and he is the best dad I could have ever asked for. He doesn't always understand things right, or do the right things, or even say the right things. But he is one of the best men I've ever known. He's changed my life for the better. I wouldn't ever think of praying to God to change one little thing about him.. unless he were sick and I wanted him to get better. My mom is person that I look towards as an example and as someone that I can only dream of being like. She is that special person that I have always looked towards to know that that's what I want to be. She means so much to me and she is a major stronghold for me. You know she is laying in a bed not 5 feet from me, and I know that I've told her a million times how much I love her and how much I look to her for guidance, support, love, example, role model, calmness serenity, and happiness, but I don't know as if she will ever know how much it really is. How much I truly love her and look to her. I couldn't and wouldn't ever ask, pray, or beg or even think about someone better existing... because I know that it's not possible. She might not believe that... but I know that it's true.. I just pray that she knows how much she really does mean to me and how much I really love her. My brother taught me so much... one thing he taught me was don't take things that you love and care about for granite... because you never know when they will be gone. He almost passed when he was younger... That was my first lesson of how much he really meant to me in my life. Idk what I would do without him. He is someone that I look to for so many different things... He's so great at so many things... but he just can't see it... I wished he could. he's one of the best people I know and have ever met. He's a top priority in my life and I think always will be. All of my family are amazing and i shall always think it. I have learned to put the gospel first and a top priority in my life... By doing so, I've found an amazing boyfriend in one of the best friends I have now. He has taught me so much, and in a short amount of time. And I just continue to learn from him. Every time I see him, every time he reads with me, and every time I can see a smile cross my face and know that it's real and it's not just a show for anyone. All and all my life is going really good right now... I think the only thing that I'm having a hard time with at the moment is the whole finding a new job thing... I need one of those.. that way I can transfer schools to the school where I have been able to find a new love at. And yet still be able to make my car payment so that I don't loose Baloo. But aside from that everything is looking up. My friends are all great. And being good examples to me as well. Well there is a little update on my life, and a little extra. Something that goes beyond the surface. Something that I was able to share, and hopefully have help in defining itself and just know that there is a reason for everything, and no matter what it is, there is always someone there next to you, that loves you and that does care what happens. I take that back, there is a couple people that feel that way. I know this because I'm one of them. and always will be... Don't ever forget that. I must go for now. I must rest this potnotted up head of mine so that it will hopefully stop pounding... And maybe tomorrow I'll write about how I sustained a concussion and how I came to the realization of how other things really do matter in life... I guess sometimes you just have to have an experience that will either make something or break something, for you to see the more important things in life. Like being happy. :) My love goes out to all of you who read this!!!! May you're day be blessed and let it go wonderful for you. Peace ~Kim

Ok so wow I made a big change in my life.

Ok so I was in a lot of pain awhile ago and doing all of those testing to figure out what is wrong... Well sad thing is is that we still don't know what is going on with me... I'm still in a lot of pain and it hurts to pretty much do anything to active... Before I go on for a minute I need to ask any of you to please not freak out at me for a decision that I made... I've already dealt with a few people doing this... It doesn't make it any easier for me when people aren't very supportive... However I just want you all to know that I am officially no longer a dancer... I'm still waiting for some paperwork to go through but I am being medically withdrawn from the dance program here at the University... I am off team now... out of all my dance classes... and working on getting better now. It's not easy for me to think of it as the fact that I'm no longer dancing... that's all I've ever done... That's all I've ever known... Most of you know that if someone else tells me I can't do something... especially when it comes to someone telling me I can't dance... However when it's myself and the Big Man upstairs telling me... it's a little easier to follow it... This is something that I've really been praying about and trying to find comfort and guidance in my decisions... But I know now that it really was the right decision that I made. I told my coach last wed.. and of course I was like bawling... but I did ask him to at least let me to finish out team that week because we had a performance Friday Night... I asked him if he'd let me do one last performance before I had to quit. My coach agreed to this.... So I kept feeling like this sucks... but I have been really surprised and proud of myself for how Positive I've been.... Because I know that this is what I need in my life. Dancing is not my future anymore... my future is my kids and my family. You can't deny that, or at least I can't. The Big Man basically told me that if I didn't quit I'd get injured bad enough that I wouldn't be able to have those things... I had reoccurring feelings, thoughts, and nightmares... and I had to make a choice... either them or World Championships... My kids will always take precedence and they are my first priority... So it's either I chose them right now or I chose to be selfish and keep dancing... No thanks... they need to get here... Another positive thing that I have to think of to keep my head up is the fact that my goal was to make the Tour Team and to know that in the coach's eyes I'd be good enough to dance in world championships and make the Latin Medley Team.. Which I did. I made them and I had him tell me that I was doing very good. That is a big thing for me... I know that I made it and that I got to experience it for awhile... I don't need to step onto that floor in England to know that I made it. When I think of it that way it makes it easier... You make your choice when you are in my shoes but I think it'd be far better of a blessing to say: "I'm a mom, look at my beautiful child that I get to spend the rest of eternity with" rather than saying... "Look I have something worldly from Europe and only a memory of stepping onto some hardwood floor covered in sweat.." So please understand my decision of quitting. And please support me when I chose to be with my kids and my family rather than passing something like that up. So the doctors have written me letters to put in with the paperwork and they are proud of my decision and they are fully backing me up when it comes to taking care of my body rather than dancing. Other than that going on everything else is going great in my life. I've got like 3 dates this week... of course they are just like friends type of dates... I'm not thinking of anything serious with any of them... but you just never know... we'll see... I'm sorta waiting to see what is going on with another guy at the moment... Sometimes you just never know you just have to follow the feelings and just take one day at a time... Keep praying and wait until whatever is supposed to happen, to happen... I'm not going to be rushing anything right now. I'm still young and I almost did that once. So I want to know that it is the right thing to do when the time comes. But yeah.... fun fun... my time starts to free up and then it's taken back up by all of my friends etc. which is actually nice because now I actually have time to spend with them now... As well as my family. Today actually was the best. I got to spend the morning with my brother and his baby. I took them out to buy him his blessing outfit and a cute church outfit as a gift from me. They are so adorable!!! We are going to be surprising his wife with them after she gets off work. Then we went to lunch and then now I'm at work... And now by thing I'm waiting for is an email.... :) it's someones P-Day today and I'm sorta looking forward to getting a couple questions answered... I spent a bunch of time up at his families house over the weekend so I decided to ask for his advice on a couple things... and and asking for forgiveness for me and his mom lol... I sorta let her get onto my account online and send him some stuff... So I hope he's not mad now... lol But anywho I think I'm going to head out because I've got to go on break soon so I can go and pick up some paperwork and turn them in for my whole medical withdraw thing.... So I love ya and peace out. Love, Kim